When Your Plan Isn't His Will
If you've been following my blog for the past month then you know that I am a planner. I love to plan. No, you don't understand I have a planner for every area of my life. Yes, a separate planner for each area. Ha! I think the reason I love to plan is because then I feel in control of that area. When I plan my daily schedule I feel in control of my life in the day to day. When I plan my budget I feel in control of my finances. When I plan my meals for the week I feel in control of my health. I honestly have a plan for everything. From when we are going to have kids, to when we will buy a house, to when we will go on vacation. I never realized that this could be a bad thing until the Lord spoke something so simple, yet so profound to me.
"Brooke, you are trying to fit My will into your plans."
You know I've always thought I was fully surrendered to Jesus. Since giving my life to Jesus I've prided myself on how much I've trusted Him wholeheartedly, but in this season the Lord has pointed to my control issue and hasn't let up and it's honestly exhausting. It hurts to be refined. It hurts to have a part that is rooted so deeply in you extracted without any pain meds. It's hard and uncomfortable. But if you struggle with this as well I'm going to give you a few reminder to help you embrace the letting go of your well thought out plans and move in obedience of the perfect will of God for your life...
1. He alone establishes my steps
"The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps." Proverbs 16:9
As soon as the Lord spoke these words to me I knew He was right. I have all these plans, but that doesn't mean they are the Lord's. You see it isn't bad to have plans, but to take on your plans and say it's God's will isn't okay. You have plans, good, but remember Jesus has the final say. I mean He knows the whole picture and so if He is doing something now it's because it's truly what's best in the grand scheme of things!
2. His ways are not my ways
“'For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord." Isaiah 55:8
This has been my anthem verse as I go through this season. You see His ways aren't my ways, praise God! My ways pale in comparison to His. He knows the beginning from the end. He knows what you need in this exact season. It may not make sense, but it doesn't has to. All you have to do is trust that He knows what He is doing. (I mean He has been killin' it for everyone else's life for thousands of years.) Which leads me to number three...
3. Trust God
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6
My favorite part of this verse is "lean not on your own understanding" because I do that more than I like to admit. I'm a problem solver. I'm great at creating solutions in a moment. So when a situation comes up in my life I often make a quick decision, one that I think is a good one and go with that as to not feel out of control in that situation. I many times in the moment forget to go to the One who has every answer. I forget to listen to Holy Spirit and trust that whatever He says to do is best even if my plan seems logical in my own understanding... So in this season I'm learning to put that tendency aside and pause and listen to what God is saying to do and then simply follow and trust that He's got it. Many times trusting God means giving up control and that can be scary, but trusting in God is the most secure thing we can do. Our plans can fail. His never have.
4. He has your best interest in mind
I know you're plans are great, and honestly your plans probably make a lot of sense. (I know mine do! Ha!) For instance my husband was getting a new job (refer back to this post for the whole story) but the Lord had another plan... My husband got a call saying he got a job at Apple, but it was part-time. I'm over here like, "Uh, Lord did you forget that our plan was for it to be full-time...?" But as I was reminding the Lord about 'our' plan He gently spoke to my fears that He has my best interest in mind. He knows what's best. And guess what? Two days after Nathan got that call from Apple he also got a call from a customer he has been trying to make a sale with for four months who is finally ready to sign. If Nathan was working full-time at Apple he wouldn't be able to go through with this sale. It's so funny how we think we know best, but the Lord's plans are so much greater. When our plans fizzle the Lord always has the perfect plan.
Listen, I know it's scary to trust the Lord when you feel like your plan rocks. I know it's hard to 'let go and let God'. I know it's hard to fight your flesh's desire to be in control, but you can do it. You can let go. You can fight your flesh. You can trust the Lord wholeheartedly. Join me in this journey as I daily choose to trust that He will correctly direct our steps; choose to trust His way and remember that He truly has our best interest in mind.
P.S. I just want to say, my husband has been such a trooper through this whole season. The entire time he has never questioned God. He has never been stressed. Every time I come to him crying from fear of the future as I see my plans failing, he has continually guided my eyes back to Jesus and reminded me of His faithfulness thus far. Guys, how did I get so blessed!?