Get Your Song Back
Have you ever felt discouraged, but can't put your finger on why? Or have you ever felt so overwhelmed by your dreams and ambitions that instead of just putting one foot in front of the other to achieve them, you quit altogether? Well if you haven't I'm quite envious of you because I have been in both situations, more times that I'd care to admit.
You may have noticed that I haven't written a blog in months and I could tell you I was super busy because of the holidays, but I'm all about being real so I'll leave the white lies out of it. The truth is I was overwhelmed. I was discouraged. I was giving up because I felt what I had to say paled in comparison to many other blogs I read. I felt under qualified and overwhelmed. I knew writing a blog was a God given dream; a stepping stone for bigger things to come later on, but I felt that my reach was small and what I had to offer wasn't something special, so why waste my precious time that I could be spending watching The Office, right? (insert eye roll here) I was also scared I would fail. That I would put all this effort into something and then it have no impact. I was worried that if I stopped writing no one would even notice or care... (talk about dramatic... insert second eye roll)
I didn't even realize I felt these things until the beginning of the New Year. I was on my way to a prayer and worship set at my church and as I was praying I heard the Lord whisper to me, "This year I'm giving you your song back." This caught me off guard because quite frankly I thought I was doing great in my walk with God. I was expectant for the new year. I was ready to start new things and move forward with my game plan for the year. I was hearing God's voice more clearly than I had in years. I'd been moving out in courage in areas I never had before, so why would God want to give me back a song I already had?
Once I got to the prayer set the Lord immediately put Psalm 42:5 on my heart to read,
"Why am I discouraged?
Why is my heart sad?
I will put my hope in God!
I will praise Him again - my Savior."
In this moment God began to pin point areas I had been discouraged in. Listen, God doesn't show you things like this and then just leave you to figure them out on your own. Instead, He walks them out with you. He takes you by the hand and leads you into courage. You never, ever have to do it alone. When I was allowing my fear of failing to keep me from stepping into a destiny God had for me all He had to do was remind me of my call and destiny. He will be quick to show you your short comings, but He never leaves you to fix it alone.
"God doesn't call the qualified; He qualifies the called."
I'm sure you've heard this quote before. I had too, many times and every time after reading it I'd say, "Yes, and amen", but when my heart and call began to be attacked I chose to push this truth aside. You see when you are discouraged you're not only limiting yourself of your full God given potential, you're also allowing pride to creep in little by little because it becomes about you and how you aren't good enough. That's not Jesus ya'll!!
After Jesus spoke Psalm 42:5 to me I could literally feel a courage begin to rise up in me. But as I began to sing to Him, the funniest thing happened. I heard that Still Small voice again, but this time He said, "Stop singing and let Me sing over you." In my discouragement and my fear of not being good enough God began to speak truth over me. He began to tell me how I am called to these things I was feeling so discouraged in. He began to awaken dreams that had been dormant for years and He spoke new ones into my heart. He didn't just make me figure out my discouragement on my own, He took that discouragement and breathed courage with every word He sung over me.
"The Lord your God is with you,
the Mighty Warrior who saves.
He will take great delight in you;
in his love he will no longer rebuke you,
but will rejoice over you with singing.”
So if you are discouraged or feeling overwhelmed, I pray that God will restore your praise and in doing so you will allow Him to sing truth over you. He is worthy of all your praise. Allow your life to sing of His goodness.